you left you with me on days I asked you to take all of you with you.
you left with me days we didn’t want to end,
you left memories I didn’t ask to keep.
you’ve once again done all of your biddings.
maybe I want your hands to play around those lines it loved to draw,
maybe I want it today.
maybe I miss those days when you fell asleep with your lips on mine, maybe I want you, today.
am I permitted to feel all of these things?
to think about those things and want them today,
am I permitted to want those days your eyes had more words to say?
can I wish again for days we almost made lives that could have had one of our last names?
can these memories come only in my sleep?
I wonder why they come to me even when I’ve refused to keep…them.
maybe I want these parts of you I remember. maybe I don’t.
maybe I should call. maybe I shouldn’t. maybe I should feel. maybe I shouldn’t.
maybe I should move on but what if I hurt someone and take away the home they’ve found in me, what if I make them sad…later?
what if I make me sad, what if it is just my body that misses your touches, what if I’m lost even in myself.
maybe you should find your way here with the help of our hearts that still speaks without our voice.
© Delight Olumati
Delight Chilegide Olumati 
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